Freaky Tuesdays

I guess today lots of things hit me, lots of life issues. Today my ex had her baby boy; Elijah Jack. He’s named after my brother Jackson in a way. He didn’t like the idea very much and we have been talking about it most the evening. Cari and I have also been talking about the baby, how it would effect me. I’ve said over and over that it doesn’t bother me that she is having another mans child, she chose to break up with me (cheat) and then marry another; then get pregnant from another guy. I know!!! She’s a real winner, she wasn’t like that growing up, things change and people do too. I haven’t changed my feelings for her and even though she does have a small child, it’s her choice and her responsibility. Cari insists that I’m going to set up some fund to help her with the kid, I’m not…Amy says I cant help but to worry about the baby, I do but there is nothing in my power to help her with, if I do help then it appears (to her) I want her back. I’m not hurt or angry or wishing I had a kid now. I do however wish the best for the both of them. Right now my girlfriend is the only thing on my mind and my job. Missing Amy since I was spoiled all last week talking to her, the whole day was just different for me not being able to talk to her whenever of how ever long I wanted. On top of that she had to take her brother to the hospital because of a bacteria infection in his lungs. My work, last Saturday my best office worker fell from a ladder and broke her pelvic bone. OUCH!! So on top of baby drama and people calling me left and right over that I was missing Amy and having to learn Diane’s job. A super weird day, now Jacks and I sit dumbfounded that she chose to use his name and why. Anyways I plan on hitting the grindstone big time again tomorrow to finish up my office work and make my plans for the next month or so. Tomorrow if I get time I will post about my sister and her being on the T ball team, I keep forgetting to say something about our little Babe Ruth.