Balancing Acts

So distance, events, others, interests and mostly time are all factors to make feelings change about yourself or someone else. I’ve witnessed this and experienced it myself on just about all counts. When my Pops is away the house changes, the air seems lighter and for some reason I can accomplish things. = Distance. My younger brother has been out of the house for almost the last two weeks and it was total silence then, him leaving for a trip to Cabo. = Events. My sister and Mom were in Florida enjoying Space Camp and family which made it even more dull. Now, they are all back, well not my Pops thank God but the rest of the clan is. Lori and Mom leave tomorrow for the Gulf to be with my Pops the whole summer. I snuggled in the couch with Lori tonight just to spend some time with her, she was mad because I came home late but grew excited when she saw I brought --her very own boogie board with her name spray painted on it. I tucked her in the bed for the last time this summer and watched her drift off to sleep. I’m going to miss that little one. The other day she told me she named my Exs baby “Pirate Larry”. Where she came up with that I don’t know but I like it. = Others. I caught Jacks rolling in semi late tonight after hanging out with Trace (something I cooked up myself) He was all smiles talking about the stupid things Trace has planned for the summer. = Interests. All of those that make life balance out can make or break you. I feel for people that go through this, I really do because its such a lonely feeling. Really not knowing where to turn or who to talk to. In time, with a few interests and some distance from the hurt, the events will change for the better, its life, it has to balance out.