Moods

Have you ever just been in a mood? Something or someone affects you and your whole attitude about life changes -- just for a while. Last night I was sitting on the deck enjoying the night when “company” came over unannounced and unwanted. It was my Ex thinking I wanted her to come in for a visit with her child in tow. She was wrong on both counts, while she kept forcing me to hold him. I didn’t want to and expressed how I didn’t appreciate her just dropping by without so much as a phone call. “Why? Do you have a woman here?” was her smart ass response. I quickly asked her “where the father of the baby was he might want to hold it” she scowled at me. “Are you afraid of holding my baby, he doesn’t bite”. I held my tongue but wanted to tell her if he’s anything like his mom he would bite. I sat there in disgust as she pushed and talked as if we were old pals. Asking question after personal question as if I were to really answer her.” You better get on the stick and have one of these or you are going to be alone the rest of your life”. That was the straw that broke the camels back. I freaked on her, telling her things I thought I never would say in my entire life to any person, hated or not, half of it I can’t even remember what I blurted out. She packed all her play things up and left in tears, hopefully getting the point that she’s not welcomed around me anymore. I broke open a leftover 6 pack from the weekend and worked my way though it, steaming the whole time thinking about what was said. Then to come in to work and the new girl asked to leave at 3 today but decided to she better leave at noon to beat traffic to the dentist. I told her that her part time project was about over and she might want to use that time to look for another job as well. It might be a good thing that I am alone in the house right now, so no one else is growled at.