Thursdays …..

I guess the worry with the old man has made things come to a boil around here and he sees it. Mom still is not feeling well, I wanted to lie to Jacks and tell him things are going some what better but I won’t. I don’t like the idea of him racing home to sit here and worry when there isn’t anything for him to do. I also don’t want him and Pop clashing into each other; both their emotions are running super high.
The other night Pops and I had a nice sit down talk; we even focused on why he is being a selfish idiot for the last year or so. I guess if you don’t walk in the other person’s shoes you really don’t see what might be going on in their life. I didn’t know that he had a new boss and the company he worked for did a massive change over. That he almost lost his job and position and refused to tell anyone about it. Teaching us our whole lives, how to do things right in our careers to demand respect with our employers -- while he wasn’t doing was not a good example. However, I think maybe that I am beyond the “I told you so” stage in my life; he could have expressed himself to us or at least me. I don’t excuse or condone what he had been doing to Jacks in the last year. There is no excuse for that and he at least admitted it and has been getting help.
Lori still won’t be in a room alone with him, he knows it and she cringes when he tries to be close to her. Can you imagine? Your own 8 year old daughter flinching every time you come near, try to talk to her? He walks in a room, she shrinks in the chair she’s sitting and keeps an watchful eye on him the whole time, never making a peep. What a heart breaking thought that must be. There again he needs to make the repairs on that situation not I. All Lori wants is Jacks home, she cries when she’s on the phone with him and hanging up after, wanting him to come home, I know this kills him to hear it.
Mom and G keep things to themselves; I know there is more to this than just an iron deficiency, you don’t stay in the hospital this long for just that. If I have to go through what we just did with my aunt I want to know now, maybe tonight I might have my own little sit down talk with Mom.
PG is all in a thither to visit Jacks, who will be coming home for the holidays soon and then moving for the last time. PG is worried that Jacks won’t like his new condo, I love it, it’s much bigger than the one he has now. Pops doesn’t know where the new one is, nor has the key to it, so that mean no disasters while moving in and soon won’t have the cell phone to contact him. Not that I’m worried about that issue any longer.
Maybe the topper on the whole thing is my Pops admits he’s having trouble and is at least getting some help for it. For him to at least try is a great effort, I wont be punishing him by trying to make life any harder. Who will that help to do that anyways?
Man I need to get back to my school posts and job rants.